:...I Only Want {Sympathy} In The Form Of You {*Crawling} Into Bed With Me...:

julia_b16 @ 2006-05-19T22:23:00

2006-05-20T02:36:47Z

So this is whats new with me. I'm scared about tommorow
Tommorow means another day closer to leaving my school, meaning another day closer to summer, which means another day closer to a new school. Do you know how big a college is? It's huge
I got scared moving from the little kid line to the other end of the school to the big kid line in grade 5. I'm not a big person on change. I went to a differnt highschool then all my grade school friends becasue I wanted to swim, and I thought I hated them all and leaving them would be best. ( Thats another story for another time) I had a couple ahsmta attacks the morning b4 the first day of grade 9. I have been complaining about my job since my frist day of work almost 2 years ago, yet i am too scared to put in an applicatin anywhere else becasue that means change. When I first met my boyfriend I was scared! B/c well he didn't fit into Julias perfect little scheldue which I am terrified to screw up! What is wrong with me! I have 2 go to college sometime! I cant have a 7th year at highschool! I'm gonna have to apply for a new job sometime! I'm going to have to fit new people into my scheldue sometime! but for some reason the thought of doing this makes me sick to my stomach. My friend Mallory is moving OUT OF WINDSOR for a summer job then staying OUT OF THE WINDOSR BUBBLE and going to school. I'm pretty sure I'd have a couple mental breakdowns and have 2 come home. I dont understand why i do this, Am i really that scared of change? is growing up really that horrifying!? When my mother asked me if i thought It would be best to go to a college away from home I just laughed in her face and asked her how shed think I make out? And her response " Yeah you're right Dad would have to come pick you up" Isn't that Sad!? like woow I am so scared of change that my own mother doesnt belive that I can live away from her, hullo I am almost 18 I dont need my mom anymore...
Thats a horrible Lie I dont even know what i would do on my own. Maybe thats why im a not a person of change? maybe I get too attached to people and try to keep them around me forever? I dont no, maybe a few therapy sessions are in my future?
All I do know is every day as i walk down the hallway I see people that are talking about prom and college and all I can focus on is not throwing up.

julia_b16 @ 2006-04-17T10:33:00

2006-04-17T14:39:18Z

Ommg its been forever since a Did journal thingy ma bob!
But my life is full of nothing exciting, I have not seen Diana in a long time :( i have no stories to tell
However, that is about to change becasue me and Diana Trussler will meet again this Friday to reinact the First time we met! it will be grand
I will explaing to you how we met. Soo Last year i do belive it was like Marchhh 4th? im gonna say, I do not no exactly anywho I went to Kennedys semi with my friend Nate. I did not no many ppl. at this semi and At one point nate was in a circle talking to his friends and I..not knowing anyone was outside of the circle.. Only to turn around and find miss. Diana doing some crazy ass robot dance I think it was? By herslef. soo being me I joined in with this dance. ( coincidently we also had the same dress on! Omgah I NO!) so that was r wonderful meeting and weve been in lust ever since muhaha oo diana i love u like fat kid loves cake, and muffins and cookies. I figure a fat kid can eat more then one cake? anywho! This was dedicated to Diana Trussler
Have I good day,!
From: julia! :)

julia_b16 @ 2005-12-03T23:16:00

2005-12-04T04:16:47Z

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMMOROW!!!
TOMMOROW BEING DECEMEBR 4th !!!!!

More RandomNess!..

2005-12-04T03:52:35Z

How Can You Love Someone
When You Hardly Know Them?

How Can You Say Those Words
Knowing Deep Down It's Killing You?

How Can you pretend and laugh it off
When All You Want To Do Is Cry?

How Can You Make Yourslef Happy
When All You Want Is For It To End?

How Do you Tell someone their Perfect
When All You Notice Are Their Flaws

How Can You Be with Someone
Yet ALways Thinking Of Someone Else?

How Can You Be So Fake?

RandomNess

2005-12-04T03:49:21Z

So It's been a very boring night but I came across some poems I guess, Still not sure about How I feel About it. It just seemed like something to put in the Livejournal.

Notice How She Smiles
Notice How She Grins
See How She's flaunting
Trying to Cover Her Sins
Notice how shes calm
Notice Hows Shes mellow
starting to re-think
No longer showing her happy Hello!
Notice how she cries
Notice how she writes
Making her Last decision
As She turns out Her lights
Notice How they sob
Notice How they Weep
Her unknowing family
Not realizing her thoughts were so deep
Notice how she's missed
But they still move on
Notice How she looks upon
But to them she is forever gone.

julia_b16 @ 2005-11-24T15:08:00

2005-11-24T20:30:50Z

Leadership class, ew. basically known as the class Julia likes 2 skip or conviently be "sick" 4. Sure it has its perks and we do some fun stuff, but then there are days when we get such retarted projects or we just listen to the teacher talk about democratic autocratic and laissez-faire leaders! Not exactullay an excitement filled class.
Anyways!, In leadership the other day we were given a project to mentor people of grades 9 - 11 in the weightroom and help them with their areas of their body that they would like to fix. We were split into groups of 4, 2 girls, 2 boys and given certian days to go. Just my luck, my group of 4 has 1 person that I like. The girl that I am sent to work with is a girl that I was never very fond of. ( we disagreeed quite a bit in past years classes and pretty much yelled at each other last year during english class!) She isn't the nicest/prettiest/popularist/good odoured girl that you will meet. I have found myslef on many occasions laughing at jokes made about her. ( I did feel bad, but anyone reading this can not say that they have never laughed along with a joke despite it being mean or rude). So knowing I was 2 be with this girl made me very upset I didnt want anything 2 do with her. But why would I think that? once I came back to my senses I wanted to hit myslef. I don't understand how someone could be so rude, and that someone was me.! Needless to say I started communicating with this girl and found her to be very nice (despite our differnces in the past) she was telling me, ever so nicely, how she hates highschool. Basically..highschool girls. She doesnt understand why girls have 2 be so caddy towrds each other or why putting someone down makes girls think they will feel better. She just cant wait to get out of riverside. While explaining her troubles throughout highschool she was almost in tears, and all I could think of was how I was so incredibly rude to this girl in the past. ( Back to that English class problem last year, when she challenged my views on something I retaliated with harsh drastic words, then friends of mine, girl friends, retaliated agaisnt her as well). Then I got to thinking why would I do that? Why am I such a horrible person? Why is it "cool" to be bitchy and why does it make you feellike a better person to be a huge bitch 2 someone? I don't know why I did what I did or what I was thinking in the past but it was wrong. I know say hi to this girl every chance i get, despite who is around me and I know stand up to people that put her or anyone else down for no reason other then the bitch trying to look good in front of her friends.
Sooo... I guess mrs. Hanson talking about how a good leader shows respect really does make sense, maybe I should actullay try 2 attend that class from now on!

Ode 2 girls

2005-10-15T14:36:13Z

This is How I feel about a VAST majority of girls
Girls are snobby bitches, the only one you can truly trust is your best friend, and coworkers like mal and lauren! hehe
GIrls only care about one thing..themselves. They would gladly crush another girls dream to make themselves look better
If A girl is going down they will drag another girl down with them becasue they cant face shame on their own.
Now this is not to say EVERY girl is like that! but seriously people have we learned Nothign from mean girls!! lol If you find yourself wanting to beat a friend @ everything.ur not a friend. If ur boy has a girl best friend, dont be jealous of her... If he wanted her he'd be with her... and dont feel threatend by her, if she wanted him she would have tried along time ago!! theres no recent events in my life have made me think this or anything ive just been noticing over the past months..well actullay years that girls are changing. they are now caddy and selfish. It's tough being a chick! lol
<3 Julia!

So I'm A Bitch I guess!

2005-09-15T00:26:27Z

So its been like a month since I've made an entry:) But really nothing interesting happens in my life!. Well nothign worth telling you people. Except today is me and matts one month. yay lol and APPARENTLY im a huge shallow bitch!
I NO I WAS SURPRISED 2
...Well he're is the story. So a friend of mine was talking 2 someone that I met maybe once. And my friend says "ya i'm haning out with Julia tonite"
the girl respondes " shes kinda bitchy eh?"
my friend "no wut do u mean"
unnamed girl " o I dont no i just heard she is bitchy and sticks her nose up 2 ppl. that she thinks are beneath her"
My friend " o no thats not julia at all"
YEAH! THAT WAS THE 1st circumstance that day!!
( a few hours later)
I'm talking 2 someone who im kind of friends with. We're more aquatences. and we were conversing on how we met. and he says
"Ya my first impression of u wanst that good"
Me: "ok? lol wut was it!"
Him: "I thought you were the snobby bitchy type of girl"
Me: Ok?
Him:" well i dont think that anymore
........UH THANKS BUDDY!
LIKE What the Hell! Do I give off a bitchy spoiled snobby Vibe!!! If so TELL ME I"LL Change! lol It's not even a big deal wut ppl. think of me cuz noramlly I wouldn't care but Really! Wow I was so mad! grr ppl. dont make accusations about someone unless u know them well! THANKS!

julia_b16 @ 2005-08-15T11:15:00

2005-08-15T15:20:52Z

OOOOOOKKK
So Im a huge paranoid ass!
haha Matt did ask me out last night! awe yay hehe and im just paranoid and nuthing was wrong with him, hehe o im an excellent read of people... not! lol
So that party I went 2 it was good becasue i saw 3 people i like! the girl whos party it was, her b/f and a friend of mine. the other ones didnt even no them! or dont like them!! So yeah good fun, and my mimis ugh lol so boring, but it was a good night at matts hehe!
I must be off to go shower but i wanted to tell yall im a paranoid ass! lol :)

julia_b16 @ 2005-08-14T13:32:00

2005-08-14T17:41:13Z

Well this is going to be a blah day!
I have 2 go to a get together that i seriosuly dont want 2, noone going likes me! why was i invited! gawd! lol
Then I have 2 go to mimis birthday gathering , dont wanna go 2 that eiether,
then Im supposed 2 go 2 matts =o) I SO wanan go 2 that but i dont no if thast gona happen now!
k just listen 2 this and tell me if im paranoid or if hes acting weird!
So matt has been counting down 2 tonite on hjis msn name and like to me, he wont tel lme wuts going on tonite tho. Colleen thinks hes finally gonna maek us official !lol but counting that on hjis msn name? thats eiether really cute or really weird! im gonna go with cute lol Well all of a sudden r friend Warren asks "if matt does ask u out soon will u say yes" ofcourse ill say yes! lol gezz but that was a random question so im thinking, mm maybe Colleen is rite! Well all of a sudden matt takes the countdown out of his msn name.. no worries w/e then he says to me " i dont want u 2 rush ur mimis tonite , we can just do somethgin tommorow nite" now u make thnk thast nice of him but literally 5 minutes earlier he was tellig me 2 hurry my mimi up cuz we "Have" 2 hang out tonite. so im getting confused an dthen he started givng me liek "yeah" and "no" as his asnwers when im talking 2 him! so finally he says he has 2 get ready for work an i said " ok wel ill call u when i get home from my mimi, o wait nvm i wont cuz u dont wanna see me tonite" Matt said " i do but i wdont want u 2 rush or anything " Julia says "w/e mattt just go 2 work " Matt " I am" Offline
Now Am I paranoid or is he acting weird!! WUT IS GOING ON!!! If u haev any ideas of wut might be possibly runin gthru his head rite now plz tell me asap!
I have been todl hes just acting like a boy, but why would he all of a sudden not care about us hanging out??
RANDOM!

julia_b16 @ 2005-08-14T13:29:00

2005-08-14T17:31:13Z

Seriosuly Considering Retracting my appology Livejournal now!
Wow, just grow up to the 2 of you ( the couple) all this for nothing
literally, a minor fight over somethig that occured o, 5 months ago
just grow up and get a clue
u 2 deserve each other
have a nice life of drama and lies!

julia_b16 @ 2005-08-11T11:39:00

2005-08-11T15:50:01Z

A few days ago I made a journal entry that Has for Now and Forever Been deleted.
For those who didnt catch it, I'm sorry. I'm not going to really speak of what I said.
I was cruel and hurtful to the person being aimed at, that I dont even no.
I was merely defending my friend who was being very much so victimized in this situation.
If you (the person who wrote the 1st lj bashing my friend) were mature enough to delete yours, I will do the same.
Now my entry may have started some laughs ( i mean come on i had some good one liners) ;)But none the less it was still not me.
I am not the type of person to go saying what I said to people, unless I or a friend Is being victimized, which a friend Very much was.
You ( original lj'er) Have 2 realize wut is going on and what u could have started. U opened a can of worms that were trying 2 be forgotton by my friend. Nothing happended and you need 2 realize this. No disrespect 2 you I understand fully how someone in your position would be hurt but I think you and my friend Need 2 just look at the others perspective of things instead of starting live journal drama. Becasue that girls is not mature.
So to all of you 3 involved in this I am terribly sorry that a friendship was ruined and a relathionship? I dont really no wut happended with the g/f and b/f ( and really i dont want 2 know becasue I wish to never hear of this situation again) but I hope for the sake of you things can be worked out and I am sorry if anyone was hurt or angry over my Livejournal post, that has been deleted

julia_b16 @ 2005-08-09T09:27:00

2005-08-09T13:28:10Z

"Better Man"

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man
Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
She loved him,she don't want to leave this way
She needs him,that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
[istillonlythinkaboutyou]

WOW HORRIBLE DAY, YOU ALL GOTTA READ THIS!

2005-08-06T03:26:18Z

So I had the Worst Day Ever today!! and Im gonna make you people Listen to it!, or more READ about it!
I'll 1st DO an intro. on why it was bad then go into context! *clears throat*
So I got into work today.. I GUESS i was scheldued..that was boring so it gave me alot of time 2 think..espically about wut a friend of mine said to me.. which made me mad.. then some bitch called my work.. yeaH..could have gotton fired from her!... then matt...grrr... THEN we had soccer lost badly, and couldnt go to a party afterwards cuz i had no ride!!!!
Ugh so my work scheldues full timers on the top of the day part timers on the bottom if u get a full time shift theyll highlight you... THEY DIDNT HIGHLIGHT ME how am I supposed 2 no!! W/e!!
Then 2 nights ago i was in a bad mood cuz my friend Lauras dad past away, and A friend asked how my night went and i said horrible or something and he responded with A "dont worry you can do better" LIKE WTF!? DO I always seem 2 have boy problems! am i like a drama obsessed girl that seems to ALWAYS have a boy dump her to make you think that?? serioulsy if thats so TELL ME!, W/e..... Again! lol
Then! at work today this bitch called yelling at me about her pics cuz i was working in photofiishing, like sorry lady I dont develop them!! then when i left i guess she called back blaming the fuckin world on me! cuz she thot i lost her pics, GUESS WUT! she didnt even get them developed at my store!!!! YEA So go fuck ur slef lady cuz obvs. ur not getting any at home and ur jsut irritable cuz ur horny!!!
Then we had soccer and lost by alot!!, but we alwasy lose so meh, Well Colleen gets hurt has 2 go to the hospital! I have no ride home.. (well colleens uncle drove me home actullaY) Then I get home and tonite is my good friends going away party cuz shes going away 2 school, an i have no ride!!
O Matt i forgot about him! right! weve been seeing each other for a week?? and hes just ugh i dont no he gets mad at me if i dont see him for like 3 days but SORRY my rents just dont let me to go partys on a limb at some dudes house they dont no!! YEA! so fuck u =o) j/k Lol
But thats my day, feel free to comment! about ur bad days or suggestions for better days! and if i talked about u in this journal im sorry its been a stressful day and u probally pissed me off! =o)
Well anywho! check yea later players!
Luv Julia!

julia_b16 @ 2005-07-30T20:14:00

2005-07-31T00:42:10Z

So Its Saturday at 8:14 and im not getting picked up till 10:00 and i decided 2 write in my live journal! but I was Torn.. because wut would I write about and then it hit me!..
So I was at Work today and Mallory, was telling me how my brother was being an asshole to his g/f at a club a couple nights b4 and quite frankly I wasnt surprised. But then after As I walked around the store trying find somethign 2 do, a question came 2 mind.... Why was I not surpised by somethign like that? sure my bro can be an asshole but i should still be angry that he would do that 2 his g/f don't you think? Then it dawned on me, I am used 2 jerks in my life.
Another gurl in my work Emilila insists i have a thing for bad boys.. well if uve seen any of my exs, they dont look like bad boys at all! and there not, they just dont treat me right i guess. I was "with" this one guy for more then a year adn he cheated on me.. a couple times.. and i took him back.... a couple times. Then I was w* this guy thats younger then me! for like a month and he told me To shut the fuck up quite a bit "shut up slut" came out a couple times as well... yea good times. But Ive tried the good boy intellectual deep thinker and the athlete kind.. yea bad move there i dont no they just seem 2 bore me, or I dont even act on my feelings cuz I feel lower then them. BUt that kind of scares me because if i cant seem to like a nice boy for a while will I end up married 2 an asshole? Then I remeber My boy now.( Not saying I wanna marry him, gawd no).. We're not dating just liking each other been on a couple of dates. And right now he seems perfect for me.. If he doesnt like u goodluck cuz he may be a jerk but if he likes u hes extremely nice (luckily im the one he likes =o)) I jsut hope this one works out and i dont get called a fucking slut! or cheated on! Or not even acknowleged. Im sure I wont hes not like that At all... But dont worry Ill keep u posted on the developments!
Plus! WHen He didnt try anything b4 we ever started liking each other really, My Best Friend Colleen was confused we didnt understadn why not.. then we realized only jerks would try that b4 ur anything at all... which is wut always happens 2 the both of us. So gurls if your w* an asshole, Or being treatd badly.. dump his ass, clearly u can do better and Boys if u think ur being an ass hole. U probally are so Stop! =o)

julia_b16 @ 2005-07-11T21:01:00

2005-07-12T01:14:06Z

WOW its been a long time since i've made an entry, but quite frankly I dont know what to write about and really who cares about what im writing anyways??
exactullay!
Well Guess wut im doing an entry so your gonna enjoy it! =o) and it will be about how Houseleague soccer ruins my life =o)

So I had A game today idecides to kick me out of the game until i get the right socks, w/e! then!! i get back in the game and get knocked over by some girl, no worries its soccer! its happens, allthough im a bit peeved so im down it kinda hurt my back cuz i have a bunch of brusies already on it and as im getting up she steps on my head!! liek WOW A) the ref didnt call it and B) Its houseleague!! When i played travel noone even did that! so W/e! i push her adn bunch of other girls and dont get called =o) so yes that wasnt bad but then my friend tawyna on my team gets knocked to the ground and like kicked at 20 times and the ref says "PLAY ON" like WHAT! oo i went crazy on his ass =o) lol
and That was all about my soccer game. But really its houseleague you get a plastic trophy at the end if you win! youre gonna risk hurting a girl by kicking her while shes on the ground for a plastic trophy? Wow that is all i have 2 say to you! lol ughh i need 2 retire from soccer! And theres this other team that does cartwhelles when they socre like *clap clap clap* youre kewl girls! ugh grr Girls these days! haha well im eating a mcflurry so im getting back 2 that !
- Lata Playahs!

Boo 2 bio!

2005-06-21T19:11:40Z

So today was pretty much a horrible day..so far..it is only 2:30! but I had my bio exam, which I studied soo much for i literally dreamed about it (ill explain later) but I came out of the exam feeling amazingly unconfident. I have a 63 in the class, and i think even if i did totally bomb it, he won't fail me. Or I hope not at least! Allwell If he does, Science is no longer my thing. Who needs Bio chemistry. Seriously! lol Well anyways I read all my notes like 56974542 times and my review like 999284938 times and my text book chapters..twice. but i read it so much it stuck n my head I had a dream like 2nights ago that my cell membranes were dancing and siging to me their functions! TURNS OUT we dont even need 2 no that for our exam!!! Yea! I was mad! So Anywho, that class is failed, Allwell! Anywho! I must be off to study for Parenting exam tommorow! just wanted 2 tell all younger ppl. then me DO NOT TAKE GRADE 11 BIOLOGY!! you will regret it =o)
- lata pleyahs!

julia_b16 @ 2005-06-19T22:12:00

2005-06-20T02:15:50Z

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an "A"
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it
Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an "A"
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.
Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an "A"
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly
That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an "A"
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.

julia_b16 @ 2005-06-14T14:10:00

2005-06-14T18:40:34Z

So I was Sitting in 5th period Class the other day and 3 girls next to me were conversing about their boyfriends. One was talking about how she loves him so much and wants to be with him forever. The Other two agreed about their boyfriends. Stating that they feel the same, and swearing they will spend the rest of their lives with them. But for some reason I found that to be hilarious. I don't know why but for some reason at that moment I thought those 3 girls were nuts! how can they be that much in love with someone when they are only 16.? When they asked my opinion on the matter i just smiled and said "I guess Ive never been in love as deep as you all have" After that comment they responded by giving me a smug and pity filled smile. I thought about it for a couple minutes, then while looking around my classroom I noticed that alot of the girls are in "love" or as they say, with their boyfriends. I dont think I have ever been in love. maybe I'm weird but thats kindof a huge thing for me! I once thought I could potentially love someone, but that was my mistake, and I was clearly blinded! Now I not only feel out of place when girl talk time arises but with some of these girls I feel lower then them. Like I am uncapable of loving someone! Incase you haven't noticed I am a very undecisive person when it comes to guys and I seem to have not the same taste as most. No, I don't think Chad Michael Murray is that hot! but Ben Kowalewicz of Billy Talent, Definetley is!! And Quite Frankly, I'd rather hang out with the guys then sit across the room and admire them! (Allthough the admiring can be fun at times)
Maybe I'm just weird but when girls are talking about their pretty boy boyfriends that they are so in love with,I Guess I'll just have to wait to put my input in another conversation. Like which is better? Converse High or Low tops?? or Which is Hotter A drummer or Guitar player??

p.s. High tops and Guitar player!!

julia_b16 @ 2005-06-14T14:07:00

2005-06-14T18:10:06Z

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
- Sugar We're goin down- Fall Out Boy

Such A good Song Thought I'd Share It with all!!

julia_b16 @ 2005-05-31T21:52:00

2005-06-01T02:04:11Z

WOw so quite a bit has hapended Recently But first all I have 2 talk about is this Little Girl, actullay shes my age, decided 2 like my brother..no biggie w.e cept he has a g.f so I tell her that and she bitches at me! talking shit about me and Miss Natalee SPeers.. like wen u talk shit about his sister and her friend..like wow ur kewl sweet heart! Ugh some people I swear W/e, I tryed 2 be nice!!
Anyways! Holy Names'Prom was amazing!!! So much fun actullay Prom is overrated its kinda like Semi with fancier chairs and grosser food, ugh the food was bad Lol But the limo Was fun! hehe and yes so anwyho!!
me and Jordan Are broken up.. u are all heart broken I know alright it lasted like a month..good Job Julia!Allwell Guess that one wasnt meant to be
and Um recently Ive had like 5 isus 2 projects and a test.. wow yes it was an EVENTUFUl wekeend of studying and prom! Allwelll Im going 2 play bingo soon one of these days ..if GEORGE EVER CALLS MEE! ya i said it! haha
Anywho so yes my life is a train wreck right now..well not really I just have alot of stuff on my mind that I need 2 solve. Like you know how when you first read a book the 1st like 2 or 3 chapters seem to never make sense and you wanna stop reading the book cuz u think you'll never understand it? My mind has been in the first two chapters for a long time now and i cant Get to the next chapter of my life! lol good analogy I know but seriously thats what my mind feels like so im just a bundle of crazy these past months. Allwell I'll have it all sorted out some day!

julia_b16 @ 2005-05-18T16:52:00

2005-05-18T21:12:06Z

OK! So i officially am the 2nd clumsiest person in the world. Irene still holds #1. Who falls 4 times in one hour at a swim meet?? IRENE! haha but yes today I did the dumbest thing ever! i was running through a hallway in my house to get to my parents room so I could See Gwen Stefani On Ellen and in the hallway theres a bathroom and across the bathroom is a closet pantry thing and the doors of it were open and I didnt notice and I ran face first into the door and flew backwards on my ass haha. Luckily like 2 seconds before I took My glasses off! However! since I ran smack into the door face first, i rammed my eye into the door now I think im getting a black eye, and i have prom next week!! GOOD JOB JULIA! Yes it was a grand day. Gwen was really good tho! haha
then yesterday! We Had Our Fun fair that r gym classes ran and I had 2 make cotton candy for a bit.. def. got it all in my hair!!! ya REAL Cute! Anywasy I must go ice my eye becasue it hurts to touch and im afaird it will go black!
Just had 2 tell ya'll how great these past 2 days have been ! *thumbs up* haha
- Later days
- julia

Ode To Rain!

2005-05-15T04:37:46Z

ITT RAINNEDD!!!
Omg such a good weekend!! well..not really didnt get to see Jordan at like ALL! But It rained! So that was good. I'm a nut, like snow, I have a thing for rain. Thunderstorms and like a lot of rain are my favourtie days ever. I could stand in the rain for hours. That's my favourtie part in love movies when the couple kisses in the rain. like I said i'm weird! haha but im sure other ppl. out there like thunderstroms and rain 2!
Anyways! on friday (major rain day yaya!) I worked till 9:00 then George picked me up and met my rents to see wuts goin on for prom! Then we got icecream and watch family guy nothing major it was an ok night
SAturday I wored till 2 then went to the movies with Colleen and Jeremy (Yet another night without Jordan)
tommorow Im going 2 my cuzins to pick out some prom dresses then do the million things i have to do for homework yeah..hm another day without Jordan! What new thought rite? like wow..i cant wait till summer wen there is no homework keeping me at home!!
so wut else new hapended? o first soccer game! lol we won 4 - 0 Tawnya got a hattrick, i got one. I was showed up by a grade 9 ahah but's its ok because I luv Tawnya! ah My favourite type of soccer games....in the rain!
also this week me and the famous Natalee Speers (no relation to britney, despite wut my mom thinks) figured out how to use this random machine in r weightroom as a bicycle, leg muscle builder.That is until it slipped off my shoe and hit the side of the contraption... thankfully Ms. Hamel is oblivious to us! lol so no harm done!
Anywho! im tired yo and I gots to write Diana a note! lol so peace yo
- Lata playehs!
-Julia <3
p.s. if u hate the rain just stand out in it for 5 minutes ( not under a tree tho)! and you'll change ur mind I swear, rain is the only reason why i luv these months!

julia_b16 @ 2005-05-08T21:08:00

2005-05-09T01:22:24Z

Have You Ever wondered if you're with the Right person?
I'm not saying I'm with the wrong person or that I think there is right person for me that Im not with. But im saying that question has run threw my mind so many times recently. The person i thought I wanted to be with, clearly didnt want the same, I got over it, and Found wut I now know I want. But did I fully get over my first thought? Can U really get over someone by Wallowing away in a bottle of Canadian Club and a box of chocolate? Or does finding What u want and Need Make all Old feelings Go away? I kinda feel like they havent right now, But I guess Ill have to push those feelings under and wait to realize that wut I have is great for me and don't worry about old feelings, they're probally just gonna go away soon anyways right? It's Not like I was in Love.. Right? I think I need time to think stuff over, but If I take the time will wut I have Leave? So many questions are going threw my head But I am only 16 This is probally normal! I just wish I had it all solved

Jenna's Problem *

2005-05-09T00:29:26Z

Today was the boringst day of my life but rite now im in a bit of a stressful problem. Actullay My friend Jenna is and trying to help her is stressing me out. Lol But I definetly can relate to her and am trying desperatley to help her so any comments would help us both lol K Jenna likes a guy that Will remain nameless (safety reasons, alot of peeps gots Jennas back haha) Ne who this guy SAYS he likes Her and some days u really no he does but other days he's totaly oblivious to her even living. They're going to prom together and she has put alot of herslef into liking him. He won't even mention a relathionship and its making us both mad! haha Now this would'nt be very complicated all She'd have to do was Tell the guy how she feels. But THEN COMES BRAD a guy jennas liked forever and he likes her to! and he got jealous wen he heard about this guy! So should Jenna give up everything With the first guy becasue hes indecisive and go for Brad?? OR stick with who she truly likes and figure out wuts goin on with that?!?!? Ahh it hurts my head to help her figure out so if u have any suggestions AT All feel free to tell me and ill pass the message to her! thnxz much! shes very grateful as well haha
- Jenna WE must Vent more often You me and Nancy and dye ur hair! haha no more sleeping with the Cap ON! lol
- julia Out
- Lata pleyahs

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